A lot of the time,
things feel like a blur.
it feels like I don’t know anything.
I don’t even know how to feel
or what I am thinking.
I just let my body move
and let the words come out of my mouth,
It’s not until time has gone by,
and I can let the reality of the passing days sink in,
that I manage to get some sort of an answer.
Maybe I don’t know what I want now.
Maybe I don’t know what I’m feeling,
or if I’m ready for any of this.
Maybe I don’t have a plan.
I’m just living in the moment,
comprehending my life in retrospect.